An Empath\’s Ride

the clock says it’s 11.03am
half the day has come and gone
sitting here, i wonder at the speed
life rushes by
us little creatures caught up in its Game

secrets revealed and events unfold
exchanges between two people locked up
in the many spaces of my mind

the heart though,
has little vacancies left
reserved rooms only for a few special ones

an alliance forged, a confidante found
a gentle touch, a quiet smile…
a look that speaks more than the word ‘love’ can encapsulate
in and out they come
tread carelessly about, some do

a wave of a hand, a kiss goodbye
a harsh farewell, a turn of the head…
or none…
pieces returned, rejected but really,
what’s given can never be taken back

a welcomed presence, a retreating figure,
a comforting companion, a withdrawing shadow
come and go, here and there,
was, is and may be
a blur of images spinning ruthlessly round me
fleeting captions of memories everywhere

a brief regret, some blinding pain
comes and goes, here and there,
was, is and always will be

up and down i go,
in and out i turn,
ride the waves i will
until the waves rise no more and i reach a plateau
where time finally stops

and i am released
from captivity into freedom
that is here and now,
if i so can reach it
here and now.

I Will Follow You Into The Dark

Love of mine some day you will die
But I’ll be close behind
I’ll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no’s on their vacancy signs

If there’s no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I’ll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles brusied by a lady in black
And I held my toungue as she told me
“Son fear is the heart of love”
So I never went back

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no’s on their vacancy signs

If there’s no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I’ll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It’s nothing to cry about
Cause we’ll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no’s on their vacancy signs

If there’s no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I’ll follow you into the dark
Then I’ll follow you into the dark

… when i returned Home,
only to be greeted with its everything
that breaks my heart.

… when i heard my grandpa’s voice
ringing loudly in my head,
only to realise it’s merely an empty echo in my mind.

… when once again surrounded by people
who love me so well,
i find myself standing alone at the edge,
with solitude filling the hollow within and drowning me alive.

i want to fall over the precipice
into the dark and insane world.
surely it’s not so bad to lose one’s mind?
comfort it may bring,
to be lost in a world completely unreal to everyone
but myself.
the dark beckons, and i must respond.
i want to close my eyes and never open them
if all i see is myself standing alone again.

Chances are you’ll find me
somewhere on your road tonight
seems I always end up driving by
ever since I’ve known you
it just seems you’re on my way
all the rules of logic don’t apply
I long to see you in the night
be with you till morning light

I remember clearly how you looked
the night we met
I recall your laughter and your smile
I remember how you made me
feel so at ease
I remember all your grace and style
and now you’re all I long to see
you’ve come to mean so much to me

Chances are I’ll see you somewhere
in my dreams tonight
you’ll be smiling like the night we met
Chances are I’ll hold you
and I’ll offer all I have
you’re the only one I can’t forget

Baby, you’re the best I’ve ever met
and I’ll be dreaming of the future
and hoping you’ll be by my side
and in the morning I’ll be longing for the night

You’re the only one I can’t forget
Baby, you’re the best I’ve ever met